About changes, memories and inspiration

It is amazing, how time just literally flies. I was tiding my room today and found a shoe box full of my old diaries - of course I started to read them....oh dear, have I changed! I remember, when I was younger everybody told me that I was clearly the most emotional person on earth, the most mood-changing, longing for romance-kind of person... It did kind of hurt my feelings back then, but oh god, it was true. These diaries are full of that emotional crap and I was almost embarrassed to read them, but well hey, thats all still me.

The passed two years have calmed me down in a way, I have seen and felt many things and it is only normal just to grow up in some point. The year in Spain was absolutely amazing! I have never been happier - I found the most fantastic "spices of life" - great food, breathtaking beautiful places and love.

This experience gave me a lot of inner strength, that I'm only now starting to realise.

Living in London is crazy, scary, difficult and fantastic. And I absolutely love it! Life, people, places...Concerts, music, art... Definitely my place to be at the moment!

Today, standing on the doorstep of my 25th birthday I can say that yes, I know where I'm coming from, where I stand at the moment and most importantly - where I am going! Sometimes its all about enjoying the moment and being happy, but then again, doesn't it make you happy, if you know what you want! Most people are unhappy because they don't know...

I know, that I'm going to have an amazing birthday-party in Riisipere, in my country house (summer residence ;) and all my closest friends will be here!!! I don't even care about the presents, because lately the time you spend with your family and friends is the greatest present! After all, I don't live here anymore and I don't see "my people" very often!

Well...happy new year to me :)

Rebirth of my blog

Soo... I did it - I moved to London. Before I start describing London, I need to explain something: my blog has been silent for many months and before the last post even more silent for months. I haven't felt the inspiration for writing....Which is a pity... I also haven't exactly felt it for taking photos either... :( but yesterday I was walking in a Park - everything was so beautiful and inspiring and I had an idea - I felt a sudden urge to write my diary again and why not to do it IN ENGLISH!

The spring in London has started. I feel it! Its in the air and in my head. Although I have lots of writing and practicing to do, I still had couple of seconds to stop and breathe in the fragrance of spring!

London - London is amazing, fantastic, lovely.... crowded, smelly, busy, huge city! You need to move fast, think fast and act fast, only then you will survive! During the six, almost seven months I have learned to avoid rush hours and I'm used to carry an umbrella even with a sunny day, because you'll never know what kind of weather you could have after one hour.

I have been to amazing concerts at Wigmore Hall, Royal Festival Hall, Barbican Centre... I have visited National Gallery four times, my second favorite is Tate Modern...

At the moment we have three weeks holiday from Guildhall and I'm preparing for my final recital in Estonian Academy and writing my dissertation...aaarrrgghhhh...

Guildhall is colorful...the people are very nice, different, crazy, polite, cool... musicians - we have to be a little of everything.

I have found friends, fantastic ensemble partners and great professors. I still can't believe where did I take the courage to go for the audition to Guildhall...I still feel a little bit that I don't deserve it. But I definitely damn love it here!

well...I have explained myself..... See you tomorrow!