About changes, memories and inspiration

It is amazing, how time just literally flies. I was tiding my room today and found a shoe box full of my old diaries - of course I started to read them....oh dear, have I changed! I remember, when I was younger everybody told me that I was clearly the most emotional person on earth, the most mood-changing, longing for romance-kind of person... It did kind of hurt my feelings back then, but oh god, it was true. These diaries are full of that emotional crap and I was almost embarrassed to read them, but well hey, thats all still me.

The passed two years have calmed me down in a way, I have seen and felt many things and it is only normal just to grow up in some point. The year in Spain was absolutely amazing! I have never been happier - I found the most fantastic "spices of life" - great food, breathtaking beautiful places and love.

This experience gave me a lot of inner strength, that I'm only now starting to realise.

Living in London is crazy, scary, difficult and fantastic. And I absolutely love it! Life, people, places...Concerts, music, art... Definitely my place to be at the moment!

Today, standing on the doorstep of my 25th birthday I can say that yes, I know where I'm coming from, where I stand at the moment and most importantly - where I am going! Sometimes its all about enjoying the moment and being happy, but then again, doesn't it make you happy, if you know what you want! Most people are unhappy because they don't know...

I know, that I'm going to have an amazing birthday-party in Riisipere, in my country house (summer residence ;) and all my closest friends will be here!!! I don't even care about the presents, because lately the time you spend with your family and friends is the greatest present! After all, I don't live here anymore and I don't see "my people" very often!

Well...happy new year to me :)